师父给我们说了我们毕业时他想要我们发言。我一直在想应该说什么。我学到了很多,但是说几句话也没法代表在武当的深刻经验。
我学到的经验是:自己需要找到自己的生活之路。我们大部分hui来到武馆是因为我们要提升自己,然后我们觉得需要找人帮助我们。我们需要有人带领我们,他们可以完全改善自己。但是师父常说“自己需要知道自己的身体情况”,这个是对的,但我觉得还有一部分:自己需要很理解自己。如果你要真的想要改变,自己需要去努力,别人可以告诉你怎么做,但是自己需要花时间。这个并不容易,过程 也很痛苦。
但是功夫本身就很辛苦。修自己本来就是一门功夫。功夫不光是拳打脚踢,什么的 ,功夫是一个需要自己思考。有时候我们需要承认我们的缺点– 慢慢的理解自己以后能开始信任自己的质感。在我们内在我们都有自己的老师,如果自己能理解,问题就都会消失。
Shifu asked us to write a speech. He said maybe others could learn from what we’ve been through so I thought a lot about it, trying to decide what was the most important lesson I’ve learned. I’ve learned so much and I’m really not sure a speech can express a deep lesson like this, but I have to try.
The most important lesson I’ve learned here is to find my own way. SO many of us come here hoping to make a change we don’t know ourselves or trust ourselves enough to do it alone. We think someone can look deep inside us and tell us what to do and that if we just follow blindly someone out there can “fix” us. Shifu always says you have to “learn your own body” and he’s right… but I want to go further and say you have to “learn yourself” inside and out. The only way to make a lasting change is to do the work yourself… and it is very hard work.
It is hard work but that’s what kung fu is, hard work and that doesn’t just mean kicks and punches, it means looking at yourself and seeing thing that are difficult to see and to admit and it means being brace enough to trust your intuition. We all have an inner teacher who can guide us and once I found mine, I know that I would be okay, that leaving here didn’t mean I would stop learning and growing. I only hope that everyone can do the same.